Let me say first

For My Best Friend Who lived in City with Sun and traffic.

Ah yeah we are almost 30 now and still single and yeah I had problem to accept and compromise with diversity. I read your blog about let them say it first. Yup "Anything impossible & AJAIB could happen in my life”. Sometimes I wonder with my self with all the decision I have made. Something imposible turns into something posible and yes you can call that nekat, I agree with that word. And now I think more about my future and my plans for my life, and maybe in the end I will said the same word whatever. For now I can't accept "uncertain status" and yes Let me ask first And Let me Say first. I need words, I need comfort, maybe that just some promise and wishing but still I need that to make me calm down. In the end I realize that never happen. Well at least I am trying to keep asking and saying, and that become pattern in my relationship. Ask, say , wish and promise. I am too easy to accept or maybe I started or already become numb and said in the end of the day my fav word whatever.

In fact we are women had issues with ages. And I can imagine people who lived in our society felt sorry about us. Ohhhhhhh poor dear you and you "30 old virgin *^*" And they will said I wish and praying for both of you can find right man and built family lived happy forever . And I imagine we give big smiling inside broken heart million pieces. I wish everthing in this world is easy to solve, I wish my life is not complicated. And I remember reading book Dont sweat the small stuff by Richard Carlson, He write Life is a Test. It is Only a Test.